Thursday, October 9, 2008

A "little" update...

So, I feel bad for not posting anything since before I left for school...
Life has been so different here. I have had to deal with roommates that are completely different from me, friends that are decietful and drama-aholics (so not really friends), a singing voice that needs medical help, classes that I'm having a hard time managing my time for, boys/RMs flirting with me, and buying groceries- all without my parents! It is tough, but I think I'm adjusting pretty well.
With my roommate situation, it was hard for me at first to hang out with them because it was hard for me to relate and understand them. So, I found other friends in Chapman who accepted me and loved me and even called me their adopted roommate because I'd spend most of my time with them during the week and weekends. It was through them that I met some guy friends whom we have become really close to (a relationship came out of it with one of the girls). Well, as of last week, one of the girls Stephany didn't appreciate my actions one night and she got mad at me and doesn't consider me to be a friend but more of an aquaintance now. I feel like her roommates went against me also and aparently need their space too from me. I was pretty frustrated that something so minor could affect them so dramatically. I think since then I have not been able to call those girls my friends, which is very sad for me, especially since they were the only girls I felt comfortable around, because they accepted me and appreciated me- or so I thought. No matter though. I have learned to cope and to move on with life without dwelling on their unkind actions toward me. There's a lot I don't understand about freshman girls. They seem to freak out about things that don't matter! This little escapade had also given me a chance to hang out with my roommates and I am actually enjoying spending time with them now. We still have our differences, but I am learning to love them.
As for the "boy" life, I have actually not gone on one date while I've been here (I'm going on one on friday...)- which is totally fine for me actually. I have been making a lot of good guy friends and that really is enough for me right now. I really don't want to involve myself in any relationship right now. I just want friendship, because I know I'll be the most happy in the long run if I've developed life long friends.
I am enjoying it though! It was hard when I had all these girls against me, and I guess it still annoys me, but I don't want to dwell on that.

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